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Music

My passion is music,
it calms me down when I think im going to lose it
I can do anything off the top of my head,
its crazy how many young people are dead
How many people are doing drugs
just because they didn’t ever get a hug
See what I just did?
I just told the truth with rhymes
because that’s the only way people will understand
Music is my passion and I do it everyday,
no matter what people say everything goes my way
or we do it over again because they always said no pain no gain
So how can I have gain if I don’t put myself through the pain
Rap to me is like that main vein
I need it because it keeps me alive
To the point where I want to dive,
head first in the ocean and drown my thoughts so then people will understand See?
I just did it again Gave you my thoughts on how my world began
Music is my passion,
not for the money or the fashion, but its how I block out reality;
its how I become me the only person I want to be
When you have a passion nothing gets in your way,
this is what I say and this is my day and it always will be
Just hope people have passion like me.

Freshman Year (By Christian Mercado) (Final Passion Entry)

As I jumbled down my stairs in an attempt to zip my bag up and talk to a friend on the other line, I realized how excited I was. It was the first day of basketball workouts for high school, and I could finally get back to doing what I love the most, playing basketball. Yes, there was going to be deep competition in making the team my first year, but I wasn’t thinking about that. I was too excited to think about maybe getting cut from the team or, maybe making the team and not playing at all. The only thoughts that rushed through my head were fantasies about making game winning shots, and scoring a lot of points in future games. These thoughts were happy then, but would eventually end up hurting my game in the long shot.

The walk to school was both exciting and nerve wrecking. I walked with some friends who were also coming to the workouts, but all of us were felt the same way. We just wanted to go out and play, it was going to be our first time playing against high school competition. At this time, what I thought was important was showing off and proving that I had the talent to be on the team. But, my summer prior to this wasn’t really as filled with basketball as it should have been. I spent most of my time with friends messing around doing things any other teenager would do. I just assumed through the summer that making the team was going to come easy, and I was wrong.

The first night of workouts went horribly. I wasn’t placed on a bad team or anything; I just didn’t really expect the competition to be as good as it was. For some reason, everyone was out running me and truly beating me at what I thought I was best at. Through the workout I wondered and wondered but it wasn’t until I overheard some of the other players discussing how hard they had worked in the off season. Now, I could see it clearly, everyone at the workouts was ready and conditioned properly. And because of this I also saw that I was the oddball in the gym, I had barely touched a basketball in the summer it now I knew I was going to pay for it. Truly, through the summer I hadn’t even thought about preparing for workouts, I assumed that going to workouts was the way everyone was going to get back in shape and get back in their grooves. But, I was extremely wrong. Things didn’t work in high school like they did in middle school. The constant grind wasn’t for fun, it was because someone was always more prepared than you and you had to be ready at anytime to fight for your spot. So after the first night I could already see that something had to be done if I wanted to make the team.  

I spend the next day thinking and finally came to the conclusion that I had to make a better second impression. I thought that it might not have been that I wasn’t in shape maybe it was that I was too nervous. All I knew was that I had to show my fellow players what I was made of, because deep down I knew I had talent but I  just wasn’t sure how exactly I could prove it. So, the second night of workouts I played the game in a different way. I was again placed on a good team so all I had to do was blend in with my teammates. But, I was incapable of doing so. I couldn’t keep up with the fast past the games were being played at, and when I did actually get the ball, I turned it over. So overall I ended up making the team look worse. I was playing to fit in, not to have fun. The night ended up turning into another slap in the face towards my confidence. Thoughts of being unprepared were again flowing through my mind.  

The next few weeks of workouts were similar to my first few days, all I was focused on was trying to show off and prove that I was able to play with the competition. Due to my cocky mentality, I really wasn’t able to show my potential work ethic. My passion and love for the game was just not there, and I knew inside that it would cost me.  

After a few weeks of horrible play, I finally came to a conclusion that I needed one last hoorah. I needed to use all of my skills and if I did so then I could really show what I was made of and officially secure a spot on the team. So, when workouts began, I played to what I thought was my max potential. It was really the hardest I’d played since middle school ball, but it still wasn’t enough. Because I hadn’t prepared for this kind of competition, my efforts were pointless. The players around me literally beat me in every aspect of the game, passing the ball, running up and down the floor, and shooting the ball. Why? They all had been practicing and working hard through the off season. The thought of this constantly ran through my head, would it really have been different if I had worked on my game through the off season? Maybe sitting on my behind bragging about how good I was all summer would actually hurt me. Had I actually taken granted for the sport I loved playing? Was playing up really worth it? Because at this point, making the team didn’t look like it was going to happen.

I had grown up in a house full of hard workers, quitting wasn’t something we did. Once I was committed to doing something, I gave it my all. Because I knew giving up was for weak people, because hard work shows that you have passion and love for what you’re doing. But, now I found myself in a situation where it looked like me of all people was going to have to give up on what I loved doing the most because I took it for granted. How could I have done such a thing, I knew what it took to be a great player but I just was too lazy to actually do it for myself. I didn’t want to quit but, at that time I thought I had to…

 So, I gave up. I stopped going to workouts, I stopped playing basketball, and I stopped caring. I had to hide my face at school in order to evade questions from players and coaches. Doing this killed me. I had grown up on basketball; I’d literally played it ever since I could walk. But, due to my stupidity, I had forced myself into a situation I didn’t want to be in, a situation with no basketball.

                As the weeks slowly dragged by I found myself depressed. Because giving up on something you had done for a long time is hard. It was really comparable to breaking up with a girlfriend after a long relationship. Once your mind is used to doing something regularly, a sudden stop is going to jumble you up. But, the difference between a break up and giving up was that I couldn’t stop thinking about basketball. It was constantly in my mind, and I knew I had to make a return.

So, after several long weeks of no basketball I made a promise to myself. I promised that I was going to make a return to the game. This return wasn’t going to be any old return; I was going to come back with a passion for the game. I was going to play the game the way I knew how to play it. I was going to LOVE playing basketball again. But, doing so wasn’t going to be easy. If I thought I was bad at ninth grade workouts several weeks before, how was I going to come back from not playing at all for my whole freshman year? I knew the answer to this question, I had to work hard. Making the team my sophomore year meant that I had to work out alone through the off season. It was going to be a difficult thing to do, because everyone that I would soon fight for spots with actually knew what the high school game was like. How?  My competition had actually taken the time originally to prepare for it prior to the first night of freshman workouts.  Deep down inside, I knew I could do it. I had loved playing the game before, and during the time that I had quit, I was never happy. All I had to do was getting back to what I loved doing most, living the basketball lifestyle.

My freshman year of basketball wasn’t as great as I cracked it up to be, but without this lesson, I may never have made it to where I am now.

 

Signed, John Stockton 

 

First, I’d like to clear it up that I am not John Stockton. This piece was written for pure fun and I thought incorporating someone like John Stockton would be a fun thing to do.

Second, I’d like to make sure everyone knows that this is realistic fiction, therefore this did not actually happen to John Stockton, but it actually could have.

Third, If you are still wondering who in the world John Stockton is, don’t worry.

John Stockton is a retired NBA Legend. He played the point guard position (Like I do) and holds several NBA records that still stand such as; overall leader in assists, and steals. John Stockton had a very successful NBA career, he appeared in ten all star games and was chosen to be apart of the 1992 Olympic Dream Team (Yes, along with other greats such as Larry Bird, Magic Johnson, and of course his airness, Michael Jordan).

Fourth, Why in the world did I pick someone so successful to be the person I incorporated this story with? I chose John Stockton because I wanted to really show that bad things are going to happen to you in life, things aren’t going to go the way you want them to, but what’s important is that you don’t give up. Because things will get better, if they’re meant to be then they will eventually play out in your favor. (Hence John Stockton making it to the NBA Hall of Fame). Also, this sort of story isn’t rare in the basketball world, many great players like Charles Barkley and even Michael Jordan were also cut from their high school basketball teams but returned to the game with a spark therefore sending them into successful careers. Just like in the story John didn’t quit the game totally, he returned with a passion to the game and was a lot better in his sophomore year. Also, this message doesn’t only apply to basketball, or sports in general, it applies to everything. Everyone is bound to give up on something at one point in your life, and if you truly love what you did then you’ll go back to it. Sometimes, the bounce back is more important than your first impression. 

Your Path to Choose

I don’t think I’ve ever gotten used to the stares; the stares that penetrate my self-confidence and attack my personal physique. For a normal person this would be deteriorating; to be judged by so many people, but the thing is… I am not a normal person. Well, I am not really a person at all. I am a whale.

It’s not like an evil witch or something you might hear out of some children’s story turned me into two cubic tons of pure blubber. I was born in the winter of 1876 in the North Sea with the name Wallace Humphrey. My family was average, but friendly all the same; similar to any you might find on land.  My mother, Lillian Humphrey, was a dwarf sperm whale and my father, Gregory Humphrey, was a humpback. My father insisted that I took after his looks, but it’s obvious that my physique was that of my mother. Small enough to be only slightly larger than a human but still all whale.

As a child, I remember having a strong desire to search for things or uncover the truth that lay hidden in the shadows. Whether it be who ate the last bundle of krill or locating the whereabouts of the culprit, the sense of thrill I got while performing it, along with the acclaim I received afterwards, never ceased to provide me with a sense of fulfillment.

Once I was older and ready to set off on my own in the world, I decided to follow my childhood fervor for investigation and leave my homeland in order to pursue a proper education. Seeing how my birthplace was so close to the city of Amsterdam, I settled on the Vrije University in Amsterdam where I could focus on investigative science and criminology.

The atmosphere of the city was a big change from the cozy reefs and flowing currents I was used to. It was overwhelming due to the vast amount of people who bustled by and the abundance of edifices that littered the area. The land itself was even intimidating for it varied so much from the quiet and placid waters I grew up with. Occasionally I would see someone who stopped to eye down the new stranger in town, but I was not worried. I may have been a whale in a human world, but at least I presented myself and that is what counted. With my russet colored trench coat I had received from my mother before my journey and my unique, white banded homburg hat that belonged to my great grandfather, I made my way to the University in order to begin my new life on land.

Despite the evident handicaps of my presence as a whale, the entry qualifications that I were required to complete were no easy task. The college requested documentation of my previous education and, having lived in the ocean the majority of my life, I did not have any. However, obstinate on my decision for my future, I took the college entry exam anyways. Over a week had passed and my exam grades were finally issued out to the public. I had scored within the one-percentile of all Northern Holland for a perfect score. The administrators of Vrije acknowledged my palpable ability for detective sciences and allowed me to attend, despite of my background.

The rest of my college life went on as one would expect it to; studying and advancing in my education. Something else exceptional, however, did happen. Mid-way in my junior year of attendance at the University, I met a man named Arvin Williams who had moved from the small town of Lingen in Germany to Amsterdam in order to pursue a higher education, just like I had. Both of us shared an ineffable passion for investigation and quickly became friends.

Arvin had already completed most of his education in Germany, so we were both able to graduate at the same time. Out of college, neither of us knew what step we wanted to take next in our lives, but we were sure of one thing; we wanted to solve crimes. From our time together at the University and our ambition to catch the criminals of Holland, we settled on our future and decided from that point on we would open our own business and be partners in investigation; Detective Wallace Humphrey and Detective Arvin Williams of Humphrey and Williams Investigations.

A new day began in the Holland capital. The weather was the same one would expect; the monotonous cloudy weather that persisted to hold back its precipitation. I would not complain about it however. This monotony has taken quite a “homey” feel to it. I remember when I first witnessed this grey, metropolitan sky almost fourteen years ago. A lot has passed since then; many cases solved and criminals brought to justice. I would smile at the thought of what my parents would think of my life and how much I have come but the headache and grogginess from my recent all-nighter inhibits me from doing so. I was awake all last night pondering the most recent case that I had been handed by the Nationale Politie. There is always some mischief going on in the shadows of the Netherlands. That is another reason why I find this place so tasteful; there is always an adventure to be had.

I looked at my flipperwatch and decided to get dressed despite of my lethargy. I was supposed to meet up with my co-detective, Arvin Williams, at 9:00 so I could relay the details of the most recent case, but according to my watch it had already passed 9:10. Arvin wasn’t one to keep waiting. He might seem like a sweet and gentle fellow from the outside but once you know him for over eight years it can really show the true nature of a person.

I remember when he scolded me for a week straight just because I arrived late to a wine robbery bust several summers ago. I couldn’t convince him that is was the ingenuity of my lateness that allowed me to sneak around and retrieve all of the missing wine barrels (of course trying the merchandise myself to ensure it was all safe).

Not wanting to stall my consequence any further, I exited my “home” or better known as the small, two story apartment that was called “Humphrey and Williams Investigations”. It had cost Arvin and I nearly 3500 Guilders to buy this place but the view it had gave sight to all of De Dam, the bustling town square that resided in the middle of Amsterdam. We had both lived here together for several years, but I think Arvin has gotten the confidence to start his own life without me and with a woman I introduced him to at a ball three years ago. I can’t say I don’t miss him staying here and joining in my pain while we both stayed awake all night analyzing cases; but I really wish that I had an excuse to be late. I can no longer blame my indolence on him and say it was because did not wake me up.

The awakening sun behind the grey clouds lit the streets of Amsterdam and as I had predicted, outside stood my amiable friend, Arvin, who, while leaning against the carriage he had arrived in, looked as jubilant as ever as he awaited my approach with an incessant rhythm of fiddling with his watch and the tapping of his worn, but well groomed leather shoes. “Good morning my friend!” I said with an obviously convictable smile. “What brings you to my acquaintance this morning?”

Arvin’s face was clearly tensed while he moved his hand to his brow as if to hide the pique he had for my tardiness. “I propose that your tardiness has something beneficial to provide to the case you wished to discuss with me; just like the very tardiness that supposedly provided victory to that wine burglary bust several summers ago?”

I grew an awkward smile as I brushed the back of my head with my flipper; Arvin’s eyes now glaring towards me. “Oh Arvin!” I said with a laugh in an attempt to lighten the mood. “You never miss a beat do you? Come, come. Let’s go.” I contested as I jumped into the gasoline powered carriage that Arvin had arrived in. “I’ll provide the details on our way there.”

“Wait, where are we go-?” questioned Arvin, only to be interrupted by the tug I gave him, pulling him into the automobile.

The humming of the robust and state-of-the-art engine sent vibrations throughout all of the carriage as it slowly began to move. “Amazing, isn’t it Arvin? To think that we have the honor to experience such innovative technology in our lifetimes. The carriage was now going a tolerable speed that insured a pleasant ride.

Arvin, wanting to get to the point, attracted my attention by breaking my awe with a forceful poke. “So, would you mind explaining what the Nationale Politie had sent to the office yesterday?”

Seeing Arvin’s concern I set aside my frivolity and began to relay the information. “Well, two days ago at supposedly 6:12 p.m. the CEO of Mabley Automobile Works was shot and murdered.”

“What? Was he alone or where was he?

“The reports show that he was in the middle of talking to small group of his employees at his factory when he was murdered. No was else was harmed besides Mr. Mabley so that shows that he was most likely the definite target.”

“Were any of the witnesses able to spot the murderer?”

“I’m afraid not. As of right now we have no idea of what he looks like, but that brings another thing to my attention that I found quite peculiar.”

“Like what?”

“Well for one, I would want to make the assumption that we are dealing with an inexperienced murderer due to him blatantly murdering Mr. Mabley even while he was still surrounded by witnesses.”

“Okay, so? He is most likely just some common man who had a grudge and simply was acting on his feelings.”

“That would be the logical guess but, the fact that the murderer executed his crime so efficiently by taking out his target and escaping, even while there were so many people around, might provide some insight that this is no inexperienced murderer.”

“You mean that you think he has already murdered before?”

“That is my hunch but I may simply be thinking into it too much.” I said as my brows scrunched as if to ponder my curiosity.

The carriage had come to a stop and outside the windows revealed a vast landscape of greenery and hills. I might have found it quite beautiful if I had forgot where I requested to be taken. Outside of Arvin’s window were a mass of people; adorned with black clothing.

“Um, Wallace? Where are we?” questioned Arvin with a sense of fear on his face as he scanned over the unceasing rows of gravestones.

Making fun of Arvin’s concern I stated, “Simply a funeral. I wanted to get a chance to know Mr. Mabley better.” I hopped out of the carriage while motioning the carriage driver to stay put while we gathered some new information.
Arvin, hesitant to follow me after finding no humor in my remark, finally convinced himself to exit the carriage.

Pulling Arvin by the arm, we made our way to the funeral. While walking we were stopped by a voice not threating, as if to question our presence here, but almost as if to welcome us. I turned to see a beautiful woman with titian hair and peridot eyes that, unlike the rest of her friendly composure, were dark and seemed to be full of sorrow.

“May I help you?” she questioned with an assuaging tone.

“Hello, my name is Detective Wallace Humphrey of Humphrey and Williams Investigations,” I said while revealing the badge that was pinned to the inside of my trench coat. “And this is my partner, Detective Arvin Williams.” I elbowed Arvin to greet the cordial woman but he was still riveted by the hundreds of graves that surrounded us.

“My name is Abigail Mabley. Are you hear to investigate about Mr. Mabley’s murder?”

“Yes ma’am. According to your last name I wouldn’t suppose that you are the daughter of Mr. Mabley perhaps?”

“Oh no. Not his daughter but I am his niece. I suppose you could say that he was like a father to me however. My real father passed away from tuberculosis when I was young, and my Uncle took it up to himself to care for my mother and I.”

“Mr. Mabley must have been very important to you. I am sorry for your loss.”

“Oh no, it’s okay. Just make sure you catch the murderer, okay?” Ms. Mabley smiled as if to not worry me of herself but I could see in her face that she was on the brink of tears. Both her father and her Uncle had been taken from her. I would make it my mission to capture this thief of happiness and put him to jail, where he belonged.

“Do you mind if I have a look at the body? I wouldn’t dare soil it of course.”

“Certainly.”

I turned to Arvin and gave him a hearty push with the tip of my flipper. “Arvin, I’m going to inspect Mr. Mabley. You stay here with Ms. Mabley and keep her company.”

I made my way to the coffin with Mr. Mabley while paying respect to the others attending the funeral. Besides the odd quilted blanket that covered him up to his shoulders, Mr. Mabley seemed as if he had not really been murdered at all, and as if Ms. Mabley’s strife could be avoided. I knew however, that this was not the case because of the pale color that inhabited the face of Mr. Mabley. After inspecting the physique of the body, I looked up to face a black-robed priest that resided next to the coffin while holding a cross-necklace and Bible.

“Why is there this quilt that is covering most of Mr. Mabley’s body?” I asked.

“It is to cover up the wound of course.”

Confused, I continued the conversation with another question. “Why to cover the wound? A simple bullet should have done nothing but inflicted a small wound that could have been easily sewn.”

“A bullet? No, this man was not killed by some handgun.”

“I had read a police report that had said he had been shot.”

“And shot he had been, but it was not from some other man’s gun.”

“Then what could he have possibly been shot by? Some kind of dart or needle?” I giggled at the obscurity in a way that would not show offense to the priest.

“This man had been shot by an arrow.”

My face and brows crinkled with my disbelief. “An arrow? So you are saying that Mr. Mabley was killed by some kind of bowman?”

“I do not know the identity of the culprit but it is true that it was an arrow that had killed this man.”

I thanked the priest for the information and proceeded back to Arvin. He had finally recovered from his discombobulation and was conversing with Ms. Mabley.

“Ms. Mabley, would you please excuse us for one moment,” I said as I pulled Arvin away into a position that prevented her from hearing our conversation.

“Did you find out anything?” questioned Arvin hopefully.

I sighed with uneasiness as in an attempt to stall telling Arvin what had killed Mr. Mabley. I feared that if Ms. Mabley heard me, she would only become further burdened by the remembrance of the crude and vile death that her Uncle had suffered. “Well I found more information on how Mr. Mabley was killed.”

“Really?!” Arvin said with an excitement that somewhat disturbed me. “Was it a front shot or was he shot from behind?”

“I do not know. His body was covered with a quilt so there was no way of telling where the projectile had hit him.”

“Why did they cover his body with a quilt?”

“Arvin, Mr. Mabley was not shot by a gun.”

“What do you mean he wasn’t shot by a gun? The police report specifically said he was shot.”

“Exactly; the report said he was shot but it did not describe by what.”

“Then what are you proposing shot him?” contested Arvin with a confused laugh.

I looked over to Ms. Mabley; her eyes meeting mine with a smile. Her innocence after what had happened to her Uncle only made me feel sorry for her. She was clearly suffering inside but did not dare to concern the world of her inner sorrows.

Turning back to Arvin I said,” Mr. Mabley was shot by an arrow”.

“What?!” exclaimed Arvin while gaining the attention of Ms. Mabley. “What do you mean an arrow? What kind of dastardly and vile man would condemn another soul to such a painful way of death?”

Ms. Mabley had now moved closer to Arvin and I after hearing Arvin’s exclamation. “Did you find out anything about my Uncle?” she asked.

She knew what we had found out. She knew that we had discovered the cause of her Uncle’s death, but almost as in an attempt to blur herself from reality, she forced the truth from her mind and awaited Arvin and I to tell her the truth she really wanted to hear. She wanted to hear the truth that her Uncle, who she cared deeply for, was not murdered horrendously; that her Uncle was not a victim of the sinful actions of a wicked man that deserved to be called the devil himself.

Arvin looked at me with his face still shocked as if he had no capable way in responding to the woman’s question. I hung my head low as if to be in shame for fueling her fantasy as I said,” No, I did not find anything.”

“Oh…” responded Ms. Mabley. Yet again she revealed her sorrowful smile that she used to reflect any sort of need for sympathy.

Almost irritated by this I contested to her, “Ms. Mabley, I will say that it is out of my ability, as it is of everyone, that your Uncle may be brought back to you, but I will swear to you that I will do all that is humanely, well… whalely, possible to bring the devilish fiend who murdered Mr. Mabley to justice in all extents of the law.”

I could see that her wall she had created in her mind to block any sort of pity cracked just then, as she let out a single tear. “Thank you Wallace.”

I nodded and said, “Ms. Mabley, would you mind stopping by at our office tomorrow so I could ask you any questions that might help with the case?”

“Certainly and… call me Abigail. We have certainly talked to each other enough that I think we can refer to each as proper acquaintances.”

“Well then Abigail, see you tomorrow.” Arvin and I dismissed ourselves from Abigail’s presence and proceeded to enter back into our cab. As the carriages’ motor roared and carried us away, I could still see the spurious smile upon Abigail’s face and also the sole tear that hung onto her cheek.

Arvin seemed exhausted for a reason I did not understand why; especially since he hardly talked during this whole escapade, broke the silence by saying, “There is never a time I have around you that is not full of adventure. What do you say we grab us some lunch?”

Arvin knew what he was doing. He was trying to get the mind of the case because he that knew when I had the resolve to do something, especially after making a promise like I had just made to Abigail, that I would stop at nothing to see it fulfilled. I would not even stop for something like lunch. Arvin sighed as his stomach grumbled for a need of nourishment. “I’m guessing we are not going to be making it to lunch today, are we?”

I laughed and contested to the carriage driver,” Onward to Mabley Automobile Works!”

“What? Why there?” questioned Arvin.

“To catch a criminal you must become the criminal, or as you might say step in his shoes.”

“But you don’t know which way the arrow came from.”

“Mr. Mabley was most likely standing near a wall, so the location of the murderer when he killed Mr. Mabley would have to have been somewhere on the opposite side of him.”

Unlike Mr. Mabley’s funeral which was held right outside of town, Mabley Automobile Works was on the industrial Far East side of Amsterdam which was further than any of the commercial establishments I had ever been to. It took us around twenty minutes, but we had finally reached the factory, and I could now stop listening to Arvin’s dramatic whining about his insignificant malnutrition he claimed to be experiencing.

Ignoring Arvin, I exited the car while pulling him out with me. The factory was massive. Mr. Mabley most definitely had a monopoly in the car business. No wonder why someone would want his product out of the market. Arvin, now straggling along by himself, followed me to the security guard of the factory where I provided our credentials and was allowed in. The factory was almost a ghost town since its owner had deceased. “Do you mind showing me where Mr. Mabley was murdered?” I asked the security guard.

The man nodded; his thick white mustache bobbing along with his head. He pointed to an illustration of chalk on the ground which resembled Mr. Mabley. As I had expected, to the right of the chalk picture stood a wall that would have forced the murderer to attack from the left. Clearing my mind to focus on the scenario as it had happened, I scanned the left side of the vast automobile factory. Nothing had stuck out as the location of the murderer until I saw a small, object in the distance that blew in the slight breeze as the bottom portion was wedged in between two railings that hung onto the side of the sky bridge on the ceiling of the factory. Overwhelmed with curiosity and hope, I frantically searched for the ladder that was connected to the factory’s sky bridge. Finding its location I quickly climbed it and found my way to the newly discovered clue. Wedged in between the two railings was a feather, but not just any feather. It was a feather that had come off the back of an arrow. Arvin looked in awe at what I had found. Curious of its trajectory, I followed the angle of the feathers and on its course lay the broken head of an arrow, hidden under some kind of metal plating machine. A missed shot? But why? None of the witnesses in the police report had said anything about another shot. Or perhaps a second shot… at a second target.

Collecting both of the clues, Arvin and I returned to our homes to end the day. That night, like many others, I could not sleep for my mind could not wrap around the evidence that these clues provided. How could there be a second target? The only person that might have been considered of value was Mr. Mabley and no one else.

After hours of throwing meaningless thoughts and scenarios around, the sun’s light once again shone its crisp rays throughout Arvin and I’s office. I was yet again the only inhabitant of this lonesome office, for I had told Arvin to take the day off. We both needed some time to consult our information and also gain some new details if necessary. As the sun settled in the sky and De Dam once again became full of life, I heard a knock at the door. Outside was Abigail who had come to assist me in finding out any more details as planned. I opened the door and for once I could swear that the smile that adorned her face was genuine.

“Wallace, guess what!” exclaimed Abigail as I greeted her into my home.

“What is it Abigail?”

“Last night the town bank had invited me over to discuss the will left by my father.”

“So? Did he leave something for you?”

“Yes he did, he left his life.”

“What do you mean his life?”

“I am the new CEO of Mabley Automobile Works!”

“What!?” I exclaimed. My night and its hundreds of thoughts once again came swirling back to me. “Abigail…,” I said with a pause.

“Yes? What is it Wallace?”

“If you don’t mind me asking… Where were you the day your Uncle died?” The room fell silent as if Abigail did not want to remember. She did not want to recollect that the reason why she was so horrified of her Uncle’s death was because she was standing right next to him as the arrow pierced his body and killed him.

“I… I was standing next to him. He was telling me that it would all be mine someday. The company and all of its belongings.”

A grasp of reality split my mind like a gunshot. The second arrow… the second target; it was Abigail.

“I know this is going to be very sudden but Abigail, do you know anyone; anyone at all who might have wanted to see the fall of your company?”

“There is one man. His name is Nevil Fletcher of Fletcher Electric-Carriage Inc. Ever since my Uncle first established his gasoline powered automobile business, Fletcher had always been there to compete with it with his electric powered automobiles. Using gasoline, my Uncle’s automobiles were obviously faster and stronger; along with having a cheaper price. I could understand why Fletcher would want to take down my company.”

“Do you know where Fletcher Electric-Carriage Inc. is?”

“Yes, but why?”

“With the evidence I have collected I am going to attempt to arrest Nevil Fletcher for suspected murder of your Uncle.”

“Ok! Let’s go and bring this man to justice!” Abigail began to walk out of the door but I grabbed her shoulder and stopped her. “What is it Wallace? We have to stop the man who killed my Uncle.”

“Abigail, stay here.”

“What?”

“You’ll be safe here. Fletcher has already tried to kill you once. There is no guarantee that he won’t try to kill you again.”

“You made a promise that we would bring the man who killed my Uncle to justice!”

“And I will keep that promise, but it is not going to be kept on the sacrifice of your life.”

“Won’t you at least call Arvin for help?”

“We don’t need to waste any more time. As soon as Fletcher finds out that you’re the new CEO of Mabley Automobile Works, he will make it his priority to take you out. So please Abigail, I am asking you. Where is Fletcher Electric-Carriage Inc.?”

Abigail looked down and bit her lip as if she did not want to me where it was but at the same time knew she would regret it later. Finally, Abigail mumbled,” East side of the city and four blocks down from my company.”

With the location of Fletcher I, set out to catch him; making sure to grab my flippercuffs on the way out. I needed to get to Fletcher Electric-Carriage Inc. as soon as I could. I couldn’t trust Abigail to stay put and keep out of danger. Walking down the street, I finally found a carriage and signaled it to stop. Jumping in, I made my way to Fletcher Electric-Carriage Inc.

Unlike Mabley Automobiles Works, Fletcher Electric-Carriage Inc.was a small and rundown facility. It was obvious that it was on the brink of bankruptcy and provided even more certainty that Nevil Fletcher was the kind of desperate man who would resort to murder, just to save his company. Having no security or gates, I helped myself to entering the factory. Inside, almost as if he was waiting for me, stood Nevil Fletcher himself. He was a fairly old man, but with a tall and skeletal structure that sent shivers down my spine.

“Welcome…,” greeted the old man with a raspy yet formal voice. “What brings you to my acquaintance?”

“I am Detective Wallace Humphrey of Humphrey and Williams investigations. I am here to arrest you on the charges of suspected murder of the CEO of Mabley Automobile Works.”

“Ah, yes… Wallace Humphrey.” said Fletcher, while ignoring his arrest. “You scored one of the highest on the college entry exams in all of Holland. I bet Gregory and Lillian were very proud.”

“How do you know who my parents and I are?!” I exclaimed in fear.

“Oh do not fret my dear cetacean. I simply make it a duty of mine to know people who know so much about me as well.

“Stop this meaningless chit-chat!” I shouted. “I am arresting you on the charges of suspected murder of the CEO of Mabley Automobile Works.”

“Very persistent are we? I see that we are going to have to simply get to the point. No… you will not be arresting me today.”

“You have no right to be saying what you will and will not do, you murderer!”

“Who cares if I am a murder?! Who cares that I smiled as I pierced Mr. Mabley’s chest and sent a plague of death upon his body?! You are no one to be ordering me around you whale! Learn your place!”

With a great tug, Fletcher had switched on a large light that illuminated the once dark facility, and what this newfound light revealed ripped at my heart, just like the arrow Fletcher had used to kill Mr. Mabley. Hanging by a rope was Abigail with tears streaming down her face as she began to lower towards the scrap metal crusher below her.

“Choose! Choose, you fish out of water! Either save the girl or capture me, it is your choice!”

I began to feel nauseous over the massive responsibility that was suddenly placed over me. I could either follow my natural fervor and once again solve the mystery, or I could achieve something much more and save an innocent life. Time was running out. Fletcher was escaping and Abigail grew closer to her ill-fated death. I would have to remove it; remove the passion I had for ending this mystery and in its place fill the responsibility and the morality of saving the ones I care about. With a push of my back fins and my flippers, I sent myself flying to the rescue of my dear Abigail. I flew towards Abigail and grabbed her, while landing safely on the factory floor. Abigail had been saved and as I looked up I could see the wicked man escaping. His long strides carrying him farther away; his raspy cackling fading and becoming mute.

“Curse you!” I screamed, but of course he was too far away to hear. How dare that man kill just for his own selfishness. I could not hold on to the burning anger I had for Fletcher however, because I knew I made the right choice. I looked down to Abigail and as her eyes once again opened after having been closed by fear, a smile sat across her face. It was not her fictitous smile that she used to blind the rest of the world, but a genuine smile of hope and happiness.

Where His Heart Is

I’ve never met anyone like this, not quite like this, not quite like him; he was so peculiar, he never smiles. He never seems to care, he just . . . he just barely makes it threw the day. I try and try but he won’t budge, not a single smile. He clutches his backpack closer to him. We were already half way to our neighborhood by now. I looked at him and he gave me a glance from the corner of his eyes.  He knew what was coming next. We’ve done the same thing for almost two years now.

“Please don’t”. He asked.

“I havvvveeee to. Soooo how was your day?”

“Same as always.” He replied not amused.

“Well that’s no fun”. I pouted and continued walking in silence.

I don’t get it, everybody likes me I thought as I watched him walk. His black backpack was plain and dull like his soul. How could one person be so emotionless? Was he strange? Heck yes, but that didn’t affect his looks. I might not like his attitude but I sure did like his looks. His hair was pitch black, not a single strand was out of place. Ever couple of steps he would run his hands threw his hair. It was just long enough for that, for his to run his fingers threw it; not too long but just long enough. His eyes were brown but not like basic everyday brown it was the lightest, brightest shade of brown they held flecks of a lighter color in the center, green maybe? He had a tan toned complexion and it was . . . perfect.  He was, for a lack of better words, gorgeous. We continued to walk and as we were turning onto is street he speed up like he always does. But this time I was curious, I’ve always been curious but this time it was a little too strong to ignore.

I tip toed to the door he had just entered and watched. A little boy came rushing in, he was chubby but he looked just like him. It was like someone took Blaine’s face and pasted it on the body of a one year old. Blaine’s arms outstretched to the little boy and for the first time ever I saw his smile. His smile could have knocked me strait on the ground; it was breath taking. I involuntarily smiled with him. He should do that more often I thought. Smile that is. He twirled the little boy in his arms. They both seemed so happy, so carefree.

I almost forgot how much of a stocker I was being looking threw his window. Shortly after a women appeared, she looked similar too Blaine but not quite the same. His mother I supposed. After her followed a man he looked absolutely nothing similar to Blain or the boy; a step father maybe? Blaine didn’t look too friendly with him. I guess that happens sometimes right? Stepfathers and step kids often don’t get along?  Blaine had a conversation with his mother while still holding the boy in his arms. It was as if ever second they spent conversions the conversation got more and more heated. Eventually Blains face was blaring red and he sent the younger boy away. He continued to argue with his parents; I scrunched my eyebrows together trying to hear enough to figure out what they were arguing about.

“I’m not 12 anymore in 17, I can do what I want! Stop letting him treat me like a kid”.

“I will treat you how I very well please! As long as you’re in my house you follow my rules!” The man looked angered, extremely angered. I could already tell his pride consumed him from head to toe.

“Steven, maybe you should ease up a little on him”.

“What did I tell you about undermining me women!” The man I assume to be Steven grabbed her arm, she made a face that it seemed as if he was slightly hurting her.

Blaine saw red. He pushed Steven away from her and against a wall. Steven was slightly taller then Blaine but it was obvious he was not as fit, Blaine would have the upper hand in a fight and they both knew it.

“TOUCH MY MOTHER AGAIN AND I WILL BLIND YOU! DO YOU UNDESTAND?”

I flinched from the harshness of his voice. I was on the other side of the door and I was still shaking. Steven didn’t say anything. He shoved Blaine to one side and headed for the door. I knew I had to move or he would see me.

I ran to the other side of the house where I stood against the wall and waited, when I heard a car speed off I looked around. I have to go.  Then I noticed there was another window to my right. I heard sobs, soft sobs. I looked in and I saw Blaine, God he was so beautiful. Even with his tear strained face he looked heavenly. I knew I couldn’t just leave like I had been planning to. I couldn’t leave him like this.

I tapped lightly on the window and watched as Blaine’s face snapped up to meet mine. He quickly whipped his face and came to open the window.

“What are you doing here? Leave.”

“No.” I said softly.

“Jess please just go”.

“I wont leave you like this.”

“What did you see?” he asked giving into me.

“Enough.”

I walked over the bed where he was sitting with his head in his hands. I couldn’t do this; I can’t see him like this. Why does this hurt me? I moved his hands and looked into his light brown red shot eyes and I did the only thing I thought I could. I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him. He immediately gave into me. I felt him relax and his arms wrap around my waist. I felt so small in his arms, and safe. He picked me up slightly so I was sitting on his lap with him still holding onto me, I could feel him breathing on my neck. I could feel the dampness from his eyes. I tangled my fingers in his hair and whispered, “You’ll be just fine.” again and again in his ear.

After some time just being there with him he laid down with me snuggled up to his side like a child with its teddy bear. I looked around his room, it was a dark blue-ish color, his walls were plain, and he didn’t have much up. Almost like he could get up and leave at anytime and not spend too much time packing. He took a deep breath and I heard him start to talk.

“He isn’t the first guy to do that. She was married before. Not with my father but with Jacob’s.”

“Jacob is your brother? How old is he?”

“Yeah, he’s one and a half”.

“His dad and my mom were married for five. Then things got violent. I was eight at the time. I didn’t know what was happening. They would just send me out of the house every once and a while and ever time I came back my mom would be crying and bruised somewhere.” He looked pained. He took a few more deep breaths and started again.

“But then Jacob came and things were okay again. They seemed happy. But that didn’t last for long. They started fighting and arguing even more about a month after he was born. He would yell at her to keep him quiet and she would try her best but Jacob was sick so often, sometimes she just couldn’t get him to calm down. I was eight! All I knew was that my mom was getting hurt, so naturally I stepped in front of the blow once. But even when he realized he had hit me he didn’t stop. He his me a few more time before my mom got herself together and kicked him out. He didn’t really bother us after that. I guess he could hit her but not her kids.”

“Blaine . . .”

“Stevens never hit her. He knows I’d kill him if her ever did. He just gets heated and almost. But that it, he always stops at almost. I try and convince her to leave him but she wont listen. She just says she loves him.” By this point I was almost in tears.

“Its my job to protect them. I should have protected her years ago! I should have known! I was an idiot!”

“Blaine, please stop! You were eight, you couldn’t have known!”

“Jess he HURT her! I grew up with a man the HURT my mother! That’s the home I lived in! What if, what if one day . . . I grow up to do the same?” I was taken back, he looked so sad, and he looked so scared. How can he even think that!

“Blaine Anderson don’t you DARE say that again! Do you hear me? You are not him! You will never be HIM!”

“You don’t know that.” He said it like he was confronting his worst fear; and he was. He was absolutely terrified of the idea of ever being a monster like the man he shared a house with for five years. His monster isn’t under his bed his is in his head. How do you hid from a monster like that?  I looked at him, I really looked at him; he was so scarred. I cupped his face in my hands and whipped away the moistness rushing from his eyes and I kissed him. I kissed him because I felt something about him, because he made me feel something, something stronger than I was used to, something that felt like a lot like fire. He kissed me back after his moment of shock and when we stopped he looked at me, neither of us speaking a single word. He laid us back down and I rested my head on his chest with one leg thrown loosely around his waist. He closed his eyes and relaxed ad I did the same.

 He was not plain, or dull, or careless. He was never emotionless or heartless. This is it, this it where his heart is. I was the one without something to care for. His is here, it’s in his family, it’s in his home and his love for that is what made me realize what my passion is. He’s emotions are contagious. He gave me something to care about, something to put my heart in, him. 

ocean

Her peaceful gaze puts me at ease

The soft tone in her voice stops the sands of time

The way she dances to silence reassures me

The moonlight compliments her complextion

When the horizon disappears

And the sun is no more

She will be there

My true love the sea

 

 

 

 

 

Wasted

Yeah, we spent six years together.

But I didn’t really pine.

Bring on the beer and wine,

Enough to make my eyes shine.

Don’t worry, I’ll be fine…

Without her smile.

 

She got way too needy.

So of course I left her

With no goodbye, not even a letter.

And now I’m free,

And I’ve got fun and unceasing laughter…

And regret.

 

This is the life, my friends:

Listening to the music pound,

No one holding us down,

Having fun day and night,

Spinning around town…

Alone.

 

No, I don’t think about her at all.

I’ll take another drink like this.

This is truly bliss.

I couldn’t have wished for better,

A night like this I’ll miss…

Her.

 

I’ll pay for the drinks.

No, I don’t mind.

Let’s leave the world behind.

A bar better than this

I’ll never find…

Someone like her.

 

The night is growing old,

But this party is set apart,

Even from the start.

I’ll never forget this.

These memories will fill my heart…

With emptiness.

Stone Cold

People always act all impressed by the fact that God created something from nothing in seven days, but Emma made a whole lot of something out of a whole lot of nothing every damn day, and you don’t see anybody writing books about her. I figured I’d change that.

The name’s Slick, Sam Slick, private investigator to the stars. If you’ve got a grudge and you’ve got the money, I can find some dirt for you. Anyway, there I was, another day in the office, mindin’ my own business (get it? It’s a joke). Suddenly, I get a call. Right on cue. Emma’s on the other end in hysterics, again. She’s bawlin’ something about her latest boy toy gettin’ caught in a different honey trap. I feign surprise. I roll my eyes and say, “Sugar,” real nice like. “Sugar,” I says, “Sugar, slow down. Alright, good. Now, what’s the problem?” Trouble in the Stone household. Her boyfriend has been gettin’ home late for a while now, and Emma wanted to know what’s up. “Ya came to the right guy,” I say. There’s some unintelligible mumbling on the other end of the line, to which I reply, “Yeah, the usual fee.” I know these conversations like the back of my hand. When you get the same call every week, you start to get a feel for the pattern. I tell her I’ll start tonight. She says, “alright.” There’s a bit more mumbling on the line, and I reply back with the usual until she finally hangs up. This call was longer than last week’s. Either she’s finally losin’ it, or this is a serious case. Either way, I decide, it’s going to be a long night.

            Yeah, my name’s Sam Slick. Yeah, I’m a PI. No, I’m not trapped in the 1930s. Stars appreciate a little drama, and when you’re around them as much as I am, it starts to rub off. I don’t mind it myself; acting hard-boiled keeps things interesting, but the cigar fumes tend to cling and bootlegged whiskey is hard to come by nowadays. Speaking of whiskey, I decide I ought’a get a few drinks to make tonight a bit more bearable. I close up shop and head down to the speakeasy.

            O’Glenden’s Bar is a seedy place. A little hole in the wall where at least half of all the mobs in town do business. But the owner runs a tight ship. The fuzz have never been able to pin anything on him, and his eyes are inscrutable behind his mirrored shades. His name’s Kelly or Kelvin, some Irish deal, but everyone calls him Big Glenny. Big Glenny knew everything. Everyone in town blows through O’Glenden’s at some point or another, and Big Glenny’s got a knack for getting people to tell him their tales No piece of gossip was unknown to him, no matter how trivial.

I sit myself down at the bar and order a double. Big Glenny’s got one waiting. He knew I was coming. I ask him what he knows about Stone’s latest treat, and he gives me the lowdown. I’ve dealt with Stone enough in the past to know most of her backstory. About a year ago, some big hit British boy band came to town, and she immediately struck up a little something with some paddy named Niall. Well, that didn’t last long. Maybe she lost him amongst her white bedsheets or something. Anyway, next week, it hit the news that she’d started shacking up with Niall’s limey buddy. Things went south pretty quickly, and by April, she’d made it to the last member of the band, Louis. I’d asked Stone in the past why she kept sticking with this same bunch of fools, and she’d said something about how they were going places or moving directions, but one particular direction. Something like that. I couldn’t make heads or tails of it, but I’m not going to complain because that girl keeps me in business. The calls come about once a week or so, but they’re always false alarms. Anyway, Big Glenny let me in on what’s been going down in the last week. Louis (they were still going strong, somehow) had been seen around town a few times looking oddly pale. Now typically, a pale Tommy was nothing out of the ordinary, but apparently, he had reached the albino singularity and was starting to sparkle in intense light. “Great, just great,” I say to myself. “The Cullens are back in town right as the Brit gets sparkly. I better get a danger bonus for this.” I pry a bit more out of Big Glenny before I slide him a few bucks. He says something about a theme, but I’m already halfway out the door.

I hurry down the alleyway, bundled up to fight off the biting cold. The harsh orange glow of the alley’s lighting shines off of the big camera I’m carrying, reflecting weird patterns on the walls. Why can’t anybody have affairs in fancy hotels or luxury apartments? Big Glenny told me Louis had been seen leaving these parts at about nine every day this week. It was pushing 8:15, so I had time for a little bit of snoopin’ to see what I could dig up. I search the brickwork for a window, and find one just above a dumpster. Perfect, I’d just had my coat cleaned. After a bit of maneuvering I position myself right in front of the window which, luckily, had its blinds up. With holy water in hand, ready to fight off the filthy mosquito, I peep through the window. It was an awkward angle, but I can make out just enough to be appalled. There was a unicycle in the corner, and a whole mess of horns on the floor. Something was off. It wasn’t until I spotted the jester’s hat on the ground that I realize my mistake. Louis hadn’t been having a fling with a vampire. The white was face paint. A shift to a new position confirms my suspicions. From my new vantage point, I spot a shock of brown hair pinned to the wall behind the unmistakable form of Harley Quinn. I wait until Louis’s face is clearly visible, then snap a few pics. This man’s dead meat.

It takes a few days for the film to develop, but I’ve got all the evidence I need. I stop by Emma’s house and leave the pictures in her mailbox. I don’t want to be there when the storm hits; I’ve made that mistake in the past. In a few days, the money will show up in my own mail, and a few days later, I’d get another call from Emma, same problem, new boyfriend.

With the case closed, I put Stone in the back of my mind and forget about her. The next day I head down to the speakeasy again after work for a few victory shots with Big Glenny. While I’m there, something going down on the television behind the bar catches my eye. It’s some breaking paparazzi news. I never got why Big Glenny always ran The Theroux Show; the lead always asked the oddest questions and decided to film the strangest groups. I’m about to go back to my drink when the screen changes to some footage recorded earlier that day. The film showed Stone and Tomlinson arguing like mad over some photographs Stone was waving around in the air. Apparently they’d broken up. One very determined member of the paparazzi had snuck up to Emma after the fight and snagged one of the photographs, which was now filling the screen. It showed Louis and Quinn in all the glorious detail. They’d even colorized my photo, but honestly, with a redcoat and a clown, it still looked black and white. So much for discretion. My pay would probably take a hit for this, even though it wasn’t my fault. So it goes. I pay Big Glenny for the drinks and leave.

I was awoken early the next morning by the shrapnel of my exploding door. That’s all I can remember from that morning. Maybe that’s because I was really tired when I woke, but I’m inclined to believe it was the gas that came pouring into the newly opened door. I didn’t even have time for coffee.

Next thing I know, I’m all wrapped up in chains, dangling off the side of a building. There’s a pretty nice breeze goin’, but the chains were a bit tight for my liking. I look around and see that I’m on one end of a sort of giant see-saw. On the other end, hangin’ off the other side of the building, is Louis. Right in the middle is some freak with green hair and an unbelievably pale face holding a weight in one hand and in the other, a gun that was jammed into the back of Emma Stone herself. This freak was explainin’ something to Emma in a weird, nasal voice.

“Now then, we’re going to play a little game,” he says. “Your buddy over here has been playing games with my girl, see, and that’s just not right.” The man said buddy with a little twitch of his head, and he’s constantly licking his lips between words. “So here’s the deal. You’re going to attach this weight to the bottom of one of these two… lovely gentlemen. That’s going to wreck the fine balance of this scale here, and send him down out of reach. The other man here is going to be lifted up just high enough to be unhooked without having to become very close friends with the sidewalk. Unfortunately, that’s going to mess the scales up even further, and your other pal won’t be looking so good afterwards.  So make your pick, honey; what’s it going to be? The man who cheated on you? Or the man who sold him out?”

I’d seen this clown before. He hung out in O’Glenden’s from time to time. That SOB must have sold me out as the man who took the picture. Emma was having a hard time deciding. How poetic, the scales of justice. This clown really knows how to be dramatic.  Right where Clowny McScarface was standing, there was an enormous burst of smoke. How much drama can one man make? I notice something a little off. There are threeshadows in the smoke cloud, not two. A gust of wind takes most of the smoke away and reveals Clowny fighting with some new weirdo in black tights and a mask. He’s grunting in a deep voice that’s clearly fake, unless he did lines of gravel every morning or smoked at least eighty a day.

“YOU’LL… NEVER… GET… AWAY… WITH… THIS… JOKER” he grunts between blows. So, the clown’s called the Joker? How creative.

“You’re too late, Batsy!” the Joker giggles, writhing between all the blows the newcomer had thrown against him. “Batsy” is a far less impressive name than the Joker, but it’s enough of a clue for me to realize that I was being rescued by Batman, not a lost scuba diver.

With an incredible amount of effort, Batman finally kicks the Joker square in the stomach, sending him soaring into Louis and dropping the pair off the edge of the building. Batman leaps after them and disappears.

I, as an American, fully support justice and all that, but only when it’s me who ends up the winner. With Louis gone, my side of the scale starts tipping down uncomfortably far. Where is my superhero? As quick as I had started descending, I stop. On the other side of the scale, much to my surprise, sits Emma Stone. With a bit of maneuvering, she manages to get me onto the roof and unchains me. I pull her in close for a hug.

“Thanks, Emma. I owe ya.”

“Think of it as a danger bonus” she returns.

With my arm around her waist, we walk to the edge of the building and look below. We can just barely make out the figures of the Joker and Tomlinson sprawling out on the ground. It looks like Batman was too slow. A dark blob sits next to the bodies, which I assume is Batman, but next to him is a whiter-than-white patch with a little black jester hat on top. They’re standing a little close, but I’m too dazed from recent events to give it much thought. I turn to Emma.

“So, how does lunch sound?”

“Lunch sounds nice. Lead the way.”

 


 

 Anyway, there I was, another day in the office, mindin’ my own business (get it? It’s a joke) when I get a call. Right on cue. I pick it up. The usual hysterics greet me. Trouble again. “Sugar, come on. Not again. What’s up now?” Her boyfriend goes missing every night and won’t tell her where. Big surprise. “Sugar, come on. When you’re dating Batman, he’s bound to go missing sometimes! Relax, Harley, it’s no big deal. I’ll look into it, but nothing’s going to come up.” I hang up and sigh. Every week. He’s Batman, for Christ’s sake. He’s going to go missing. Besides, Batman’s the one who should be worried. Quinn had been dating him, the Joker, and Louis all at the same time for weeks, and nobody had noticed. I decide to pack up early for the day. Business has been slow lately. I pick up the phone again and dial. “Emma, honey? It’s me. Yeah, I’m getting off work early; come meet me at O’Glenden’s. Let’s have a drink. Yes, I know, a whole month! Come on, let’s celebrate!” I hang up and dial again. “Hey, Big Glenny, cook Emma and I up something nice, we’re having a celebration! Alright, sounds perfect. Thanks. Bye.” I head for the door, grabbing my coat before I leave. I make a note to stop by the florist’s on my way to O’Glenden’s. I’ve got to make this extra romantic. She’s a hard girl to please, but I’m keeping up. She’s great, but I can tell already that it’s going to be a long night.

Springtime Sunshine

She picked up the trash bag and slung it over her shoulder, making her way towards the next shelf. The bag was heavy due to being encumbered with old relics, such as journals full of late-night ramblings and unread greeting cards. Each one Monica tossed into the pile felt like a step closer towards forgetting the past, and letting go of the memories that had once consumed her. This is why she decided to initiate spring cleaning.

Springtime had always made Monica happy. Rainbows of colorful flowers and budding trees bordered yards, parks, and sides of highways. One could smell the fresh scent of new life outside. She thought her home deserved to be the same way – Glistening and dynamic.

The living room and kitchen had been exhaustively sifted, and fresh tulips were arranged upon every table surface. The windows and doors were cracked to push out the damp winter air, giving the room a brightness and breeziness that reminded of a cloud drifting lazily on a temperate afternoon.

All that was left was the bedroom. Monica made the first step down the hallway and swallowed hard. The path in front of her suddenly became twice as treacherous, and she became light-headed at the thought of what resided inside her bedroom closet. She stared at her destination intently as her feet drug across the floor, heavy as lead.

After a rigorous hike, Monica arrived. She placed her hand on the metal doorknob, its frigid temperature sending a shock up her arm. She shook her head, eyes squinted tightly shut. With a, “Come on, you’re being an idiot,” to herself, she performed the few motions it took to get inside.

This room’s color scheme was murkier; the walls were a deep shade of purple, and her bedding a light gray that reminded of a gloomy rain. At first glance, the room was quite clean. A hamper kept clothes from being strewn onto pieces of furniture, and a secret compartment in her nightstand held all of the electrical cords. This lack of clutter, however, was quite contrary to what was held inside the closet.

The closet wasn’t a residing place for clothes; that’s what her immense, oak dresser was for. No, the closet was where painful things were shoved away. All the mess that was too unbearable to face was pushed inside.

Monica delicately opened the sliding door to the closet, handling the matter as she would a fragile newborn. The space was too dim for eyes, so she opened the window’s blinds just enough to let in delicate streams of springtime light. The sunshine brought warmth and made her relax, if only for a moment, before she returned to the task at hand.

She knew every inch of the closet, for each piece inside locked together to complete the picture of her insanity. “One box,” she told herself. “One box, and that will be good enough.”

But even the thought of peering inside made her stomach churn violently. Any mention of him caused flashes of red to streak across her clear vision. The deep color would trickle into her thoughts and become a tyrant; it blocked good judgment of how she should live her life.

Monica reached inside, and blindly searched for a box. She pulled one out shakily with help from both arms, and plopped down on the ground. Her pulse thundered in her ears and scalding tears streamed down her face. Could she really do this?

His screams filled her thoughts, and once again the red lights glared. She found her hand resting on top of the cardboard container. Its scratchy surface was not assuaging.

“Five years,” her mind whispered, “Isn’t it time to let go?”

Their afternoons spent together filled with boisterous laughter washed like a cool breeze over her mind. Monica thought of his soft wrinkles and how ironic they were; they had aged him at least a decade, but they were caused by his unfaltering ability to smile.

He never would have wished for her to live this way.

Taking a deep breath through the nose, and out the mouth, she lifted the tape with her finger. It made an earsplitting rip; the seal was broken, and now she would have to face her fears.

Inside was the collection of picture books and letters, old and new. Without lingering or wistfully remembering the past, Monica dumped the contents of the box into her bundle of junk. The bag was finally filled, and with one swift motion, she tied the red strings together firmly.

After closing the closet door, she noticed a cloud of dust had erupted from her cleaning. The particles floated in the air, swaying side to side. In the springtime sunlight, the unsettled settled, glistening all the while.

Our Perfect Family

  *I HAVE NO IDEA WHY THERE ARE BOXES AROUND EVERY NEW PARAGRAPH SO JUST IGNORE THOSE*
    “I can’t believe we did it,” I glanced over at Allyson, my newborn baby, sleeping as still as rock in the backseat of the car, “She’s beautiful.” Carwyn grabbed my hand and squeezed gently, letting a big smile overtake his face. I was lethargic from all those long hours at the hospital, longing for the moment my baby would finally appear. Now that she was here, my eyes were no longer hanging with exhaustion, but glowing with anticipation of the first moment Carwyn, Allyson, and I will share in our house as a family. I had been married to Carwyn for a year now, and life had been, at the least, perfect. So filled with laughter and joy, and I had a feeling the baby was going to make things even more like a fairytale. “We’re here!” Carwyn said. I fixed my eyes on our tiny house. The ginormous olive tree shed white flowers all over the lawn. Though it was late, the white flowers illuminated our simple, beige house. It was old, with cracks on the stairs, with doors that creak, and with a well out front. But it was home. I slowly got out of the car; my back still ached from being cooped up in a hospital bed. Carwyn got Allyson, who was peacefully asleep.

“She looks just like you when she’s sleeping,” I whispered to Carwyn as we gazed at Allyson, sleeping deeply in her crib.

“I can’t believe she’s here. It’s so surreal,” he lied down on our bed next to the crib.

“I know. It feels like a dream.”

“Speaking of dreaming, it’s about time we lay down and get some rest. It’s been a long couple of days,” Carwyn patted the space beside him, gesturing me to lie down. Though I could gaze at Allyson forever, I did not protest. We both almost immediately fell under the comfy mattress’s spell and went straight to sleep.

    I jolted awake breathlessly to the sound of banging on the walls and echoing moaning coming from unfamiliar voices. I snapped my head around the room. It was dark. Everything was dark. A dim light shone in through the rectangle shaped window on the door. I felt stiff, realizing I was on a cement mattress in a bizarre, closeted room. The walls were white with black streak marks, resembling scratch marks. Where was I? What was this place? I stumbled off the mattress, wincing due to an ache in my back. It felt like I had not moved  in ages. Looking down, I noticed I was in a faded blue hospital dress, spotted with stains I could not make out. I maneuvered slowly towards the window on the door. Peering out, the light burning my eyes. People, nurses it looked like, with permanent frowns on their faces, roamed the hallways. Attached to their arms were distressed people. They were violently shaking; their wild eyes wouldn’t stop glancing around the endless hallways. That is when I spotted him. Carwyn. He was in a nurse’s costume, walking alone, peering in every room that outlined the hallway. 

“Carwyn! Carwyn!” I screamed, desperate for his attention. He turned his head toward me, giving me a hard stare with confusion painted on his face, as if he didn’t recognize me. I tried to open the door but it was locked from the outside. “Carwyn! Answer me! It’s me, your wife! Let me out of here! LET ME OUT!” I furiously banged on the door, repeating those lines. The crazed people began to hit the walls, echoing my cries. Carwyn rushed to my door and opened it; I began to relax until I saw the syringe in his hand. He was going to sedate me. Blinded by fright, I begun to scream and scratch Carwyn. He pleaded for me to calm down as my fingertips gashed his arm and the syringe met my skin.

   “Calm down! Olivia, calm down!” I was thrashing around on the bed, the baby was crying, as Carwyn pleaded me to calm down. 

“What? What’s happening?” I asked, breathing heavily.

“You were having a nightmare,” Carwyn said, brushing my hair off my face. I got up in a hurry to get to Allyson’s crib. She was sobbing. I immediately felt horrible for disturbing her sleep, though my head was still spinning from that terribly realistic nightmare, I begun to rock Allyson back to sleep, singing a lullaby.

“I’m going to get you some water,” Carwyn got up out of bed, quickly giving Allyson a kiss on the cheek and held her hand for a second. But as he pulled away, I saw scratches on his arm. And they looked fresh.

    The blackness began to fade as my heavy eyelids opened. Carwyn was standing over me. I started to let a relieved smile spread across my face, until I saw his nurse costume along with several other faces staring down at me. I shot glances around the room in a panic, looking for Allyson. She was just here, in my arms.

“Where’s…where’s my baby?” I mumbled, slurring my words.

“Allyson?” Carwyn asked. I nodded.Carwyn pointed towards the door, which was now opened. There, standing by the door, was a girl. She looked young, no older than 15. Her eyes held fear in them, as she stared as cold as ice, at me. I stared back, stunned.

“She visits you every day.” Carwyn whipered.

“She can’t be..that’s impossible,” I whispered, holding the girl’s gaze.

    Carwyn was rocking Allyson back and forth, and I could not help but stare at the two. I was consumed with blissfulness. They were my family, what I had always wanted, and now I have. I’m blessed. They looked so peaceful, and though I was ecstatic at the thought of them, I envied their peacefulness. I had a splitting headache.

“You know, I know you said she looks like me when she’s sleeping, but all I see is your face,” he smirked at me. I smiled and sat up beside Carwyn, staring down at Allyson. I observed her features. She has round, rosy cheeks and big, brown eyes. She had a freckle on each of her cheeks. She didn’t have tons of hair, but you could tell it was a light brown, like mine. Like..the girl from my dream. Allyson looked exactly like the girl.

    “Stop! You’re harming yourself!” Carwyn yelled at me. I was pounding my head on the wall. 

“Then let me see my baby,” I said back. I needed to see Allyson.

“You’re not allowed too.” Carwyn whispered, with hostility in his voice. I scrunched my eyebrows together, flustered.

“You don’t remember? Wow, you really don’t know. What meds have they got you on?” Carwyn shook his head.

“What do you mean?” I asked.

“You’re not allowed to see Ally-your baby. You tried to drown her when she was little. That’s why you’re here.” He said, his gaze shot daggers at me.

My headache was getting worse. I couldn’t feel my body. I was numb. I started rocking back and forth, shaking. It could not have been true!

“Why would I do that?” I asked, tears streamed down my cheeks. “Wake up. Wake up Olivia. Wake up. WAKE UP!” I hollered at the top of my lungs, “This is a dream, wake up! WHY WON’T YOU WAKE UP?!”

The walls started closing in around me as Carwyn shook his head in disgust. The walls started screaming at me, their voices were taunting and piercing, “There is no escape, this is your home!” They screamed louder and louder and I couldn’t tone them out. I tried though, my lungs stung as I choked on my screams. I squeezed my head and tried to get rid of the sound, as the nurses circled me, letting the syringe hit my skin again. And blackness overpowered me.